Yeah, I thought I wouldn't be able to live even one day without you
But somehow I managed to live on longer than I thought
You don't answer as I cry out "I miss you"
I hope for a vain expectation but know it's useless
I hope your heart feels relieved
Please forget about me and live on
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by
It would've hurt less if we didn't meet at all
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever, baby
I pray for you
Oh girl I cry,
You're my all, say goodbye,
Oh my love, don't lie,
You're my heart, say goodbye
yeah... love is pain
Why do I feel regret in me? I don't even know why myself...
I’ve been telling you everyday
I smile when I see you.
I’ve told you so many times
You’re the love of my life.
In this world full of lies, in my nervous heart
the one thing I believe in is you.
When you get nervous thinking that my feelings may change
Remember I laughed when I told you that would never happen.
You have no idea. Everytime you lie to me again. It's another stake in me. Why can't you just tell the truth? Do you think I'm too fragile to handle it? or are you just being plain selfish? I guess you should be happy because you are my first regret. Do you take joy in pulling me up and pushing me back down? I was a fool to trust you. To believe you. To believe in what you said. I guess in the end I was a fool to play along.
Everytime I think back...just how much of those "memories" that we had were real? or were they all out of guilt? I can't find a reason to remember those so-called memories..I guess maybe it was just a fantasy. Maybe I was just living in a lie.
I know I can't blame you for everything that's happen.
WTF is wrong with me?
Fk this, so tired of everything.
Why can't I just leave?
No matter what I do.
In the end, I look at a picture of us, not being able to throw it away
a late night and rain falling down
i bring you back from my memories
i promised myself i will be fine without you
but i cant help it
i take in drinks that i cant even hold
trying to fill my empty heart
a day without you is too long
i pray that i may please forget you
girl...
im sorry, but i love you
that's all i gotta say...
look, everything's gonna be alright, isnt it?
so damn... why am i crying?
Friday, December 11, 2009
Monday, October 5, 2009
WTF?!
guess its impossible huh?..and u say im da one whos making things impossible..am i making things impossible or are you?
Monday, September 21, 2009
Boom.
As I am bored and in da need to vent..thus therefore..i blog. lol. never understood. always misunderstood. trust is so thin. lies aplenty. to think i was nothing. what a mask. what an act. fool to believe. never cared. jealous. never knew why. now i do. i was always there for you. were you ever there for me? trusted that you were. guess you weren't. bloody toy for da world to see. fkn decoration. fkn front. fkn used. i believed in you. i've forgiven for da past. did you ever believe in me?
hahaha..i guess i couldnt pretend anymore..im sorry..thats why i told you i know..i just couldnt bring myself to let you go..i believed in you. i thought you would actually come back..geez what am i thinking..did you really think you could hide it from me?
hahaha..i guess i couldnt pretend anymore..im sorry..thats why i told you i know..i just couldnt bring myself to let you go..i believed in you. i thought you would actually come back..geez what am i thinking..did you really think you could hide it from me?
Friday, September 11, 2009
No comment..O.o
well..what's there to say...wow im blogging?..well not realle..well if u c dis...then well..idk. when i first got told i was the dragonfly in the story...well..i was thinking to myself half maybe...but now...i guess i realle was dat dragonfly literally. I just want to know..was it all necessary?
Monday, July 6, 2009
OMG another blog
Okz the im blogging again at this time...the world is coming to an end?!...well not realle. err dunno wat to say...newaiiz went to chaddy today wif da world's biggest noob and her gramps...so that her dog can get a ....bath?!......okz...no comment from me....
Had sushi, a bit of fish and chips and a calamari ring for snack/lunch and thenn.....errr...mental blank...bumped into J..now that was random...then ended up going to intencity to ddr...don't play on the right side it's screwed up...i still beat her newaii. Then played maxi tune wif her...and she lost to me...no surprise? try and outrace my car mwahahahhaa......then i lost to a car wif higher hp...lammeee...stupid guy chose a straight map...oh rite we waited for like..30 mins to play =.=....lammeeee........
Then on the way to get the dog...she got distracted and dragged us around to do shopping O.o.....ok fine no surprise...but i was hungry T^T.....and she said "no, u have to come shop with me"...and me being who i was walked on with her...and forgot about it...until she tooks us past a foodcourt........then she chose this huge white jumper to buy....and i was like.. ><...it looks nice......it suits her...i said so...but im not sure if she believes me...i dunno whether i shud type all this....lmaooo....leave a comment if u r here!!!
I guess i must have got annoyed again...but she said something that made her pro for once.."We don't need anything to show that, what we have right here is special already". I'm sorry i've just been so blind. Guess i got a long way to go. oh wellz....btw dis is at her house atm =]....then went holmesglen wif her mum and gramps. Then we (meaning me and my lil noob) went to eat Nando's? Ok...wasn't dat great...ive worked in nando's and i gotta say...dat sucked. O.o.........then went maccas and she got hot choc and apricot danish.....and i got an apple pie....thne i left and waited for train...and when i got home...the funniest thing happened...i had no keys coz i left it in her bag....and...i forgot i was suppose to go to aunty's place for dinner.......so no one home and no keys = stranded.in the end i waited and got in....2 hrs later..noob forgot about me...so was lonely outside =.="..........
Back in got on maple and was like..."u noob u ditched me!"......newaiiz started catching up with J again and was talking till like 3am....and now blogging...rite...wat next? cbb typing nemoreee........
Had sushi, a bit of fish and chips and a calamari ring for snack/lunch and thenn.....errr...mental blank...bumped into J..now that was random...then ended up going to intencity to ddr...don't play on the right side it's screwed up...i still beat her newaii. Then played maxi tune wif her...and she lost to me...no surprise? try and outrace my car mwahahahhaa......then i lost to a car wif higher hp...lammeee...stupid guy chose a straight map...oh rite we waited for like..30 mins to play =.=....lammeeee........
Then on the way to get the dog...she got distracted and dragged us around to do shopping O.o.....ok fine no surprise...but i was hungry T^T.....and she said "no, u have to come shop with me"...and me being who i was walked on with her...and forgot about it...until she tooks us past a foodcourt........then she chose this huge white jumper to buy....and i was like.. ><...it looks nice......it suits her...i said so...but im not sure if she believes me...i dunno whether i shud type all this....lmaooo....leave a comment if u r here!!!
I guess i must have got annoyed again...but she said something that made her pro for once.."We don't need anything to show that, what we have right here is special already". I'm sorry i've just been so blind. Guess i got a long way to go. oh wellz....btw dis is at her house atm =]....then went holmesglen wif her mum and gramps. Then we (meaning me and my lil noob) went to eat Nando's? Ok...wasn't dat great...ive worked in nando's and i gotta say...dat sucked. O.o.........then went maccas and she got hot choc and apricot danish.....and i got an apple pie....thne i left and waited for train...and when i got home...the funniest thing happened...i had no keys coz i left it in her bag....and...i forgot i was suppose to go to aunty's place for dinner.......so no one home and no keys = stranded.in the end i waited and got in....2 hrs later..noob forgot about me...so was lonely outside =.="..........
Back in got on maple and was like..."u noob u ditched me!"......newaiiz started catching up with J again and was talking till like 3am....and now blogging...rite...wat next? cbb typing nemoreee........
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Time to Blog
Well didn't do very much today...mm slept in till like 12..wow dat is a first...i must be realle tired..so much happened again but not gonna say very much newaiiz. Left da noob's house at like....12-ish...can u believe it? i missed da last train!...o wellz...was gonna crash a friend's place...but was dropped off in glenny instead...oh rite let's start form yesterday...
Yesterday's volleyball was epic fail. So many excuses flying...gods. Everyone who came got annoyed at me =.=" gods. Not gonna ask them next time..they will shoot me. So ended up playing basketball. hehehe 4 girls can't take on 2 guys. You girls got owned! Well we played for like 2 hrs...oh rite ppl who came were..P, noob, L, E, AD and me...yep so enough for volleyball...beach volleyball dat is hahahahha. Well AD left, so the rest of us went to knox!
We went to Knox and went to eat first...they all had maccas and i had kfc becoz i thought a noob wanted wicked wings so i went off to buy an ultimate burger meal but she didn't want it...turns out she wanted coleslaw...then headed off to timezone...and girls being girls made stops in stores along the way...
"mama, carry your own bag", I overheard..."it's fine im just switching shoulders"(me), "why?"(L), "so i can do this"(me) (grabs a Noobs hand), "ohhh i thought the bags were too heavy"(Noob and L)........lmao L and Noob...dat was a highlight convo.
Got to Timezone and we played mmm....Mario Kart..NTS- never ever pick Donkey Kong ever again...Noob won...as usual =] then L played Mario Kart...E and P were talking...and watching...Noob was sad cause she couldn't get her card =] then played DDR and a lil kid gave us a free credit =]...but dat went to waste went the Noob child went and pressed tutorial =] lmfao sitting there waiting for it to finish. Then E and the Noob played the proper songs and gods...Noob you've grown unfit. =]....then off to glenny agn..bumped into B and N on the way =]
Glenny agn..decided to drop by T's store to look at dramas...then off to Strike for pool =] bumped into K, J, V, AK, etc etc there. waited for a table and then managed to get one..E and the Noob played first...and the Noob lost T^T..dw im still here for you! =]...then me and N played and I won =]..but no one saw....they were too busy checking out the guy next to us....then had to leave Glenny so just E, Noob and I left to take them home. I stayed and had dinner at Noob's home =] and we watched the rest of S-Diary. What a funny movie. then we watched Bleach. such old times hahahahha. then out of the blue...someone came over...and there goes my time alone with her =[
back to today..yay?...woke up at 12, then i drove to yum cha at imperial kingdom wif family..then went to the glen and let my lil bro look at games =] and then got boost for him in a lil ben 10 cup =] bumped into S in the Glen. Now that was random. Then off we went to look for a map...and didn't manage to find a good one. Then she left and I walked around a bit. Then met up wif family again and I drove home =] and then since i was bored i went to play games =] then stuff happened again...but in conclusion...no matter what happens...there is one thing i can't change...and that is the fact I Love You, you Noob. =]
Yesterday's volleyball was epic fail. So many excuses flying...gods. Everyone who came got annoyed at me =.=" gods. Not gonna ask them next time..they will shoot me. So ended up playing basketball. hehehe 4 girls can't take on 2 guys. You girls got owned! Well we played for like 2 hrs...oh rite ppl who came were..P, noob, L, E, AD and me...yep so enough for volleyball...beach volleyball dat is hahahahha. Well AD left, so the rest of us went to knox!
We went to Knox and went to eat first...they all had maccas and i had kfc becoz i thought a noob wanted wicked wings so i went off to buy an ultimate burger meal but she didn't want it...turns out she wanted coleslaw...then headed off to timezone...and girls being girls made stops in stores along the way...
"mama, carry your own bag", I overheard..."it's fine im just switching shoulders"(me), "why?"(L), "so i can do this"(me) (grabs a Noobs hand), "ohhh i thought the bags were too heavy"(Noob and L)........lmao L and Noob...dat was a highlight convo.
Got to Timezone and we played mmm....Mario Kart..NTS- never ever pick Donkey Kong ever again...Noob won...as usual =] then L played Mario Kart...E and P were talking...and watching...Noob was sad cause she couldn't get her card =] then played DDR and a lil kid gave us a free credit =]...but dat went to waste went the Noob child went and pressed tutorial =] lmfao sitting there waiting for it to finish. Then E and the Noob played the proper songs and gods...Noob you've grown unfit. =]....then off to glenny agn..bumped into B and N on the way =]
Glenny agn..decided to drop by T's store to look at dramas...then off to Strike for pool =] bumped into K, J, V, AK, etc etc there. waited for a table and then managed to get one..E and the Noob played first...and the Noob lost T^T..dw im still here for you! =]...then me and N played and I won =]..but no one saw....they were too busy checking out the guy next to us....then had to leave Glenny so just E, Noob and I left to take them home. I stayed and had dinner at Noob's home =] and we watched the rest of S-Diary. What a funny movie. then we watched Bleach. such old times hahahahha. then out of the blue...someone came over...and there goes my time alone with her =[
back to today..yay?...woke up at 12, then i drove to yum cha at imperial kingdom wif family..then went to the glen and let my lil bro look at games =] and then got boost for him in a lil ben 10 cup =] bumped into S in the Glen. Now that was random. Then off we went to look for a map...and didn't manage to find a good one. Then she left and I walked around a bit. Then met up wif family again and I drove home =] and then since i was bored i went to play games =] then stuff happened again...but in conclusion...no matter what happens...there is one thing i can't change...and that is the fact I Love You, you Noob. =]
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
First Post
Well..decided to make a blog coz im suppose to be a follower or sumfin...dunno wat to say....err...post more later?...so cbf atm.
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